Thursday, October 20, 2011


TEARS OF LIFE AND DEATH


            The place was filled with a loud noise, dizzy disco lights and smell of liquors and cigarettes. Mariella spend her time alone drinking the scotch she ordered from the bartender. Alcoholic drinks are not her passion but it made her to forget al the things that bother her.
            Oh this is life. No rules and regulations no do’s and don’ts and no Father. No one can order me around. She thought and gave a deep sigh. Her father left for a business trip to Italy. Her father was no other than, the famous business tycoon Frederico del Mar. Owner of the largest food chain and restaurants in the country.
            She knew that everyone wanted to be at her place but deep inside her she is not happy. She missed the old life she and her parents had. When she was younger, she used to live a very simple life with her parents. But when her mother died in a car accident, everything change. The loving father she dearly loved turned out to be a cold and dominant man. Her father focused on their family business and forgets about her. Yes, her father gave her all the things a father want to give to his daughter but it did not make her happy. The things she wanted all was love and attention.
            Mariella silently drinking like a fish. She felt a little dizzy when a guy invited her to dance on the dance floor but she declined. The guy was so persistent and even grabs her arms.
            “Hey what’s wrong with you? Are you deaf? I said no! So leave me alone!” Mariella ranted. The guy wanted to answer back when a voice blurted out from Mariella’s back.
            “You better leave my girl man or else I’ll give you a blow with my fists.” The guy immediately turned back and left. Mariella turned her eyes to the voice that help her.
            Mariella felt her heart wanted to come out. She had seen several good-looking men but the guy she saw right now was different. His short curly hair complimented all the features of his face especially his eyes. Mariella can’t help but stare.
            “Ahm, Is there’s something wrong with my face?” The man asked. Mariella immediately turned back to her senses.
            “Oh I’m sorry, I’m being rude.” She said blushingly.
            “Nah, it’s ok. I saw that guy was bothering you.”
            “Yeah, I want to slap him so much but you came.” She bluffed. 
            The man laughed and it made her laughed too.
            “By the way I’m Raven.” The man introduced.
            “Mariella here and thanks for helping me.” She replied.
            Mariella found herself enjoying Raven’s presence. That night was the beginning for both of them.
            Mariella was working as a manager of one of her father’s food chain branches. She doesn’t to work under her father but as the only heir, she should familiarize herself to the circulation of the company from the lowest to the highest position her father always said. She, an obedient daughter lowly obliged to her father’s decision.
            One afternoon after work, Mariella waited for a taxi because she doesn’t want to fetch by her father’s driver and she doesn’t want to have a bodyguard because it annoys her so much. Suddenly a blue car stopped in front of her, then the driver got out from the car and it was Raven.
            “Hi Mariella! Going home?”
            “Oh Raven it’s you. Yes, I’m just waiting for a taxi.”
            “I’ll drive you home. Just show me the way.”
            “Oh don’t bother Raven. I’m used to ride on a taxi -”
            “Mariella I insist. Please let me do you a favor.” Raven said without leaving Mariella’s eyes.
            “Ok, I’ll accept your offer. Thank you Raven for your concern.”
            “You’re always welcome Mariella.” Raven’s eyes brighten.
            Everyday Raven would visit Mariella at her office. Raven would give flowers or chocolates to her and asked her out for a dinner. Mariella felt so much joy being with Raven.
            It was Saturday, Raven invited Mariella for a friendly date and Mariella agreed. They went to watch a movie, eat at a fine restaurant and went to the beach. It was already sunset and the place was mild and calm. Raven and Mariella sat together and the two can’t find enough words to say for each other. Mariella felt nervous as Raven slowly held her hands and intently looking at her. Raven touched her hair as it blown by the wind and he laid it behind her ears.
            “They’re blocking the view.” Raven said.
            “Yeah, the sun is pretty isn’t it?” Mariella replied.
            “I didn’t mean the sun I mean you…” Raven said tenderly. Mariella felt the fast beat of her heart.
            “I know this is sudden but I can’t hold on my feelings anymore. Seeing and holding you like this mean everything to me. And I want you to know that my heart beats for you. I love you Mariella…I am not asking for your answer right now and whatever your answer will be, I am ready to accept it. ” Mariella felt her tears running down to her cheeks at last she heard it.  Raven got worried as he saw Mariella’s tears.
            “Mariella, you’re crying. I don’t want to see you cry. I’m sorry I was being too rushed. I-” Raven didn’t finish the words he would say as Mariella sealed it with a kiss. The sun was the sole witness of a love starting to end.

            “Welcome home Father.” Mariella greeted her father who came from a two-week business trip.
            “How’s your work?” her father asked without looking at her.
            “It was good Father you shouldn’t have to worry.” She replied. Her Father chuckled.
            “Really Mariella? Well, I know what you are up to for these past few days. I know you are having a relationship with this particular man. Don’t be fooled Mariella. Everybody knows that you are my daughter. I kn- ”
            “I now what I am doing Father. And besides you haven’t meet Raven. He is not the kind of man you are thinking of.” Mariella defensively answered.
            “I hope so Mariella. I hope so…” Her Father reluctantly answered.

            Raven and Mariella spend the day at the beach. The two enjoyed swimming and playing together. Spending time with Raven was like heaven for Mariella. She found the happiness she is looking for in Raven’s arms.
            “Mariella…”
            “Hmm…”
            “I love you…”
            Mariella laughed. “Hey, how many times did you say that to me. Maybe time will come you’ll get tired of it.”
            “I will never ever get tired of saying those words to you Mariella because those words came from my heart.”
            “I love you more Raven”
            “I love you most. Always remember that Mariella.” Raven gave Mariella a kiss and Mariella gladly obliged.
            “Good morning Father. I came as you ordered.” Mariella said in a trained voice. She was called by her Father for an “emergency meeting”.
            “Stay away from that man Mariella! He is not good for you. He uses you to-”
            “Stop it Father! All my life, I obeyed you even if I don’t want to but you never heard me complain. All I did was to please you. Now, you’re interfering with my relationship with the one I love. Raven love me when nobody did not even you. I let you decide for my life Father, but throwing accusations against Raven is not anymore fair. Raven is a good man and I believe him. Let’s stop this conversation.”
            “Mariella… listen to me, I’m your father! I know what’s best for you!”
            “Father? You never were a father to me since Mother died; because you still blame me of her death…I never wanted that to happen. ” Mariella cried and left her Father.

            Mariella hurriedly went to the parking lot but Raven was not yet around. He used to be so early to fetch me. I wonder where he is now. Maybe he is in the middle of traffic. She thought. Her cellphone rang and it was Raven. She answered it quickly.
            “Mariella please get inside! Get back! You are in da-” the line turned out.
            “Hello Raven? Where are you?” Mariella asked. She felt nervous after what had Raven said. What does he mean? She thought. Then a dark van stopped in front of her. Two huge men ravishingly get her into the van. She screamed for help but a strange fume made her silent.

            Mariella woke up and slowly opened her eyes. The room was new to her and she remembered what had happened to her last night. Her hands and feet were tightly knot and it hurted her. She called for help and the door opened. There were men standing in front of her.
            “Good morning Ms. del Mar. I hope you slept well. I know you are confuse right now, but don’t worry we already contact your old man to get you somehow if he does follow our orders.” One man laughed that made Mariella’s ears irritated.
            “Oh well, ten million is only a centavo for Mr. del Mar. Do you mind sharing your Father’s blessings Ms. del Mar?”
            “You bastards! All of you will rot jail! My Father will surely save me from here. I’ll make sure all of you will stay behind bars, rodents!” Mariella screamed.
            “You crazy woman!”
            “Stop it Jason! Don’t lay a finger on her. We promised Mr. del Mar.”
            Mariella can’t believe what she saw.
            “Raven…what is the meaning of this? Are you one of them?” Mariella sounded confused.
            “I’m sorry Mariella for dragging you here…”
            “You…you monster! How could you do this to me?! I trusted you…” Mariella cried.
            “C’mon boys let’s give Ms. del Mar some space…” Raven said without looking at her. The four men left her in deep devastation. Mariella felt a heavy pain inside her heart.

            Mariella awoke when someone touched her face. She will never ever forget the owner of that warmth. She opened her eyes and saw Raven looking at her.
            “What are you doing here? I don’t want to see your face.” Mariella said coldly. She wanted to cry but her eyes refused to shed a tear.
            “Mariella I’m sorry. I don’t want hurt you. I tied to stop them but they’re desperate. I don’t want to abduct you- ”
            “Shut up! I will never believe you. Father’s right. I should have listened to him. I shouldn’t have loved you because this whole thing is part of your stupid script after all.”
            “No Mariella, I really do love you. Please don’t tell me that. All the things we shared together were true because it came from my heart.”
            “Liar! If there’s something bad happen to my Father I will never forgive you even your soul!”
            Raven wanted to say something but the guy named Jason came in.
            “Raven, big boss wishes to speak to you.”
            “I’m going.”
            Raven looked at Mariella sadly and immediately turned his face unreadable.
            “Don’t worry Ms. del Mar; you’ll be free once your Father is willing to give us want we want.” Raven said firmly and left with Jason. Seeing Raven like that, once more break Mariella’s heart.
            It was almost midnight, Mariella still can’t sleep. She misses her Father so much. She was afraid and regretted what she has done to her Father. Suddenly, she heard something behind the door in her room. She felt someone turned the door knob and it entered Raven.
            “Raven?” Mariella wanted to confirm.
            “Shh…be quiet. Let’s get out of here before someone will notice us.”
            Raven immediately unties her hands and feet. Mariella saw the other two men Raven was with. They were lying on the ground unconscious. Mariella examined the place she is in. It was an unmanned old building near a forest. Mariella looked at Raven. Raven tightly held her hands.
She noticed blood rushing on Raven’s arm. They seemed in the middle of the forest.
            “Raven your arm is badly wounded.”
            “Don’t bother Mariella.”
            “But it needs to be treated right away or else you’ll run out of blood. And besides, I’m tired of running let’s stop for a while please.”
             They stopped and hid behind a tree.
            “Raven remove off your jacket, we need to stop the bleeding.” Mariella ripped off her dress and cleaned Raven’s wound and she bandaged it slowly. It was a cut by a knife.
            “You killed them don’t you?” She asked.
            “I never killed someone Mariella since I met you.” Raven answered.
            “Why are you doing this Raven? Why do you-” Mariella got silent as Raven kissed her.
            “Because I love you Mariella. I don’t care what will happen to me as long as I can protect you.”
            “Raven…”
            “I don’t want to lie to you anymore. Raven is only a disguise. My real name is Gary. I am one of the members in a notorious drug and car napping syndicate and now we are into kidnapping. I never had a family. I grew up alone till I joined the group. I learned to use drugs, I learned to steal and I even learned to kill. I thought doing those things is normal but I was wrong. Your love opened my eyes. Yes, part of our plan is to make you fall with me but I was the one who fall for you. You change my life. I love you please believe that Mariella. ”
            “I believe you, I believe you Gary.” Mariella let Gary Mariella kissed her and she replied with all heart. Gary immediately covered her behind.
            “Mariella watch out!” A loud sound was heard in the entire place. Mariella saw Jason pointing his gun to them.
            “Now, where do you think you two love birds are going? So Gary you are trying to ruin our plan.” Jason laughed.
            “My. My, my, you two are indeed a lovely couple. Hmmm…which one of you I should kill first, the millionaire’s daughter? Nah too bad, Oh Gary perhaps. ”
            “Jason, spare Mariella.”
            “Spare her? Why should I? But first let me try your precious Mariella. Can I Gary
?” Jason said mischievously.
            “Over my dead body!” Gary tried to steal and grab Jason’s gun. Mariella closed her eyes and suddenly, she heard two shots of bullets all over the place. Mariella immediately opened her eyes and saw Jason fell lifeless on the ground. Gary fell holding his wound enduring the pain.
            “Gary!”
            “Leave now Mariella… before others may catch you again. ”
            “No! I won’t leave you here. Please don’t dare die on me! Please don’t leave Gary.” She cried while holding Gary’s weak body.
            “I know I’m not going to live long. I lied again…I just killed someone.” He chuckled. “You are a wonderful girl Mariella. Thanks to you I learned love for the first time. You are the most wonderful thing God has ever given to me. I thought He will never send me someone like you, I’ve been a bad guy you know, but you are still here loving me, despite everything. I’m glad I met you. I love you Mariella always remember that... ” Gary slowly closed his eyes and died.
           
            9 Months Later…
            Mariella woke up and slowly moved her body. She saw her Father beside her and looking her intently.
            “Mariella you’re awake. How are you feeling?” Her Father asked.
            “I’m alright Father. Thank you so much for your understanding. I know, I hurted you but still you accept me. ” She cried.
            “You are my daughter Mariella. I promised your Mother that I would take care of you. I’m sorry too, for I was not the Father you wish to be.” Her Father cried. They hugged each other when the hospital nurse entered. The nurse slowly lent her baby to her.
            “Isn’t he beautiful Father?”
            “Yes he is…, what would be his name Mariella?”
            “Gary. I’ll name him Gary.” Mariella cried with gladness. Seeing her baby somewhat gave her the feeling that Gary is still with them. She already shed tears of Gary’s death and now she shed tears of joy of their newborn child.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Sweet Ache of Memories


The place was filled with deep silence and fresh scented flowers. I gazed the place where my beloved Arrah peacefully rested as I reminiscing the sweet ache of memories we shared together.

I arrived early for my basketball practice. I was the team captain and my team was practicing for our basketball competition. Our coach gave us a break for a minute; suddenly a pretty girl came to me and offered me bottled water and a towel.

“Oh you must be the team captain. You are a good player; by the way I’m Arrah a transferred student. Here, please accept these.” She said smiling.

As I looked at her, I felt in my heart skip a bit. I’ve never felt this feeling to any girls I’ve met before, unlike now I met Arrah.

“I’m Ryan. Yes I’m the team captain. Thanks for your concern.” I said.

Arrah lend her hand and I accepted it. I felt an indescribable sensation when our hands touched.

One day, I was heading towards the gym when I saw Arrah standing near the entrance. She was very pretty wearing the school’s uniform. Her hair was fixed in a ponytail making her face more radiant.

“Hi Ryan, I came to see your practice and I prepare your water and towel.” She said with a simple grin.

“Oh, don’t bother yourself Arrah. I’m fine thank you. You can watch our practice whenever you like.” I told her.

Every practice, Arrah was there to watch my basketball practice. She was there to cheer for me and everybody in the court presumed that she was my girlfriend.

One night, Arrah told me that she love me. I was shocked and I can’t believe that she would confess to me. She was expressive and straightforward for her feelings for me. I was speechless and honestly I felt offended.

Everyday, Arrah would gave me three red roses with chocolates on my table inside the class. I was really embarrassed and annoyed because she did the courting. I began the center of attention in the campus and it really bothered me. Everybody knew that Arrah was madly in love with me. My basketball teammates even teased me about Arrah’s wooing. I really tried my best not to entertain them and from that I began to dislike Arrah.

I did my best to stay away from her and refuse all her presents for me. Arrah was so persistent and still courted me. Until one evening after my last practice, Arrah came to see me. She looked straight into my eyes and gave me a sad smile. She gave me again three red roses and said,

“I love you Ryan, please believe that. I know that this is awkward because I’m the one who courted you but please believe me, I really do love you.” Arrah kissed me and left.

That night, Arrah occupied all the corners of my mind. She was kind, sweet and charming I thought myself. I admit that I liked her for the first time and as the days passed my feelings for her grew deeper. I felt pain whenever I stayed away from her and it turned out that I missed her a lot. So I made up my mind to confess my feelings to her.

It was my basketball competition. The school’s gym was getting packed but there was no sign of Arrah. The game was getting started but I felt that I am not ready. Until, I saw Arrah on the left bench holding a banner with the name of our team on it. She waved her hand to me and shouted, “I love you!” I felt a great mood to play the game. The game was tough and both of the teams tied. It was fifteen seconds left I saw Arrah with an encouragement in her eyes that our team would win the game. At last, my team won the game!

After the competition, I excitedly went to see Arrah, I know she was waiting for me and I was right she was indeed waiting. I immediately hugged and kissed her.

“Arrah, I love you too!” I told her. She cried for a moment and hugged me tightly. Then she gave me a cake.

“I baked this cake for you. I hope you will like it.” She said. I was touched and held her hand tightly and I wished that time would stop for both of us.

It was our first anniversary and I planned to bring Arrah out after our basketball practice. I went to our meeting place but to my disappointment, I saw Arrah laughing and giggling with another guy. They seemed so close, so sweet. All of my nerves wanted to burst out and Arrah didn’t even feel my presence. I went away immediately because I don’t want to witness the scene, the reason for my heart to break.

I never talked to Arrah after that incident. She always texted and called me but I didn’t replied. She was asking me why I’m so cold to her but I remained silent. I never saw Arrah almost a week at school and I began to worried about her.

One day, I saw the guy whom Arrah was with on our first anniversary. The guy was mad and punched me.

“You bastard! What did you do to my sister?! She loves you so much and this is how you will repay her?! Damn you! You hurted her so much and now she’s in the hospital right now battling between life and death!” The guy shouted.

I was shocked as I heard the words he said. The guy told me that he was Ben, Arrah’s brother. I was stunned from that big revelation. We hurriedly rushed to the hospital. He told me that Arrah had a serious heart disease since birth. I was horrified. He told me that Arrah has been already told by her doctors that she could not live any longer but Arrah miraculously survived from the doctor’s deadline. Ben told me that Arrah was lively, the time she met me. He never seen her sister that happy and contented before. The night of our first anniversary, he wanted to see the man who made her sister so happy but I was not there. I felt a heavy guilt inside me.

I went to Arrah’s room as fast as my legs could carry me. Arrah was lying on the bed in a terrible condition and it brought tears to my eyes. I held her hands encouraging her to live.

“Arrah, I’m so sorry…I didn’t trusted you…forgive me…please live and stay.  I’m sorry for being an idiot! Oh God! This is my fault!” I cried in vain.

Arrah slowly opened her eyes and looked at me. I saw the love in her eyes on me. I felt her hands moving and tried to utter the words of love.

 “Ryan, there’s nothing to forgive. It’s my destiny to die. I will never forget you. Thank you for making the world a wonderful place for me. I will bring the love you have given me. I love you, thank you and goodbye…” Arrah said in whisper tone and expired. Arrah died with a peaceful and happy smile on her lips.

It’s been years since Arrah’s death. I learned to move on and accepted the tragic end of our love story. I am peaceful now and hoping for another Arrah to change my life.
        

Saturday, July 30, 2011

The Lost Agreement

The place was covered with white as he opened his eyes. He knew that he was in the hospital right now. He tried his best to move his head and there he saw Erica beside him sleeping. He wanted to touch her badly but his body is weak. Then he heard Erica’s mourn after a deep sleep.

“Oh Richard, you’re awake! How are you feeling? Are you hurt? Do I need to call the Doctor? Erica asked.
.
Richard only smiled at her and shook his head. Erica’s face was relieved. “This is an another day with Erica”, Richard thought to himself. This will be an another memory to treasure for he was being with the girl he had long loved.

Richard run with delight as he heard the maid that Erica is coming over to his house to visit him. At the garden, he saw Erica with his parents. The three was having a very serious conversation. Richard wanted to call them but something told him not to. The three doesn’t even notice him. He doesn’t want to eavesdrop but he felt there is something wrong.

“Thank you Erica for a job well done! You made my son so happy and I hope will continue to help him get better.” His father said.

“I’ve never seen my son so happy Erica and we are grateful really.” His mother said.
“Based from our agreement, you will get what we promised. The money is fully yours Erica and…-“

Richard felt a bomb exploded inside his head. He immediately run as fast as he could away from them. “Erica why did you do this to me! It’s all a charade from the very start, how could you!” Richard told to himself. He felt a sharp knife stabbing him. “I’m so dumb and stupid! I’m such an idiot! Why did I love her?!” Nobody made him cry like this even his parents, but Erica did. Richard let his tears to fall, like a sunny day that it turned out to be a rainy day.

Erica pealed him an apple. Richard watched Erica intently with all the love his eyes.
“Hey stop that! I might melt!” Erica giggled.

Richard collected all the strength he needed. He already made a decision and he must do it.
“Erica …”he called.

“Yes, are you thirsty? I’ll get you a drink”

“It’s not that Erica”, Richard looked straight unto Erica’s eyes. He gave a deep sigh and continued.

“Stop this whole thing that you are concern about me. Stop pretending that you care for me. I don’t need your pity and stop showing me that you love me. I already knew the agreement between you and my parents. Don’t worry I’m not mad at you. I understand that you need money. I heard it all Erica so please stop this nonsense.”

“Richard no! You don’t understand,” Erica cried.
“What else that I did not understand? Erica, I told you that I understand. You want money right? I’m sure my father gave you already the reward. You don’t have to be oblige to look for me!”

“Please, Richard listen to me. You don’t know anything.” Erica begged.

“I have enough Erica. Stop this will you? Get out of this room now and get hell out of my life!” Richard exclaimed. He felt the pain on his head again. The physical and emotional pain collided, he screamed in an endless agony and every thing to him turned black.  

Years later, Richard miraculously survived his serious illness. He took over their family’s business and was able to reach the top three gainers in the country. He was famous in the business circle as well as helping less fortunate cancer patients. Richard has all the things a man could ever wish for but there was still an empty space inside of him and he knew that only Erica could fill it. He decided to fix things with her and maybe begin a new chapter of his life with her.

Richard hurriedly went to Erica’s place. He knocked on the door but no one answered. Then he noticed an old woman on the garden and she didn’t even saw him so he went to her.

“Good day ma’am…I’m here because I’m looking for Erica Vasquez”. Richard asked.

The old woman stared at him blankly and answered, “What is your name young man? I hope you don’t mind if I asked.”

“Oh my apologies, by the way I’m Richard Orteza.” Richard answered.

Richard stared at the old woman, “How can she be related to Erica? This is the first time I saw her. ” Richard thought.

The old woman told him to follow her until they stopped at Erica’s room. A wind suddenly touched Richard’s senses and he felt something different. As he entered the room, it was still he same place where he and Erica shared. The old woman gave him huge box and then she left. When Richard opens the box, there he saw some pictures of Erica and him and other things he gave her. As he scanned the pictures a letter fell on the floor and he get it. The letter was addressed to him and he read it.

            Dearest Richard,

                        I’m terribly sorry for all the things I’ve caused you pain and I won’t forgive myself for that, I’m really sorry. I hope you will find in your heart to forgive me. I regretted the days I wasn’t able to tell you the truth. It was true that your parents and I had an agreement about you, that if I make you happy for the last days of your life they will pay me a hundred thousand or more so I agreed. I never expected that being with you would be the most wonderful days of my life especially the night we shared in this place. I gladly took care of you when you were at the hospital and I did everything to make you happy. Every time I saw you hurt it hurted me more to see you like that and I wished that I could share the pain you endure. Your parents saw all the things I’ve done for you and they wanted to repay me but I declined. All those things came from the bottom of my heart and I gave it because I wanted to. I know that while you reading this letter, I am not around anymore but I have with me the memories we shared together. I never love someone else because it was always you. I love you very much and thank you for loving me.

                                                                                                     Love,
                                                                                                           Erica

The letter reached Richard’s heart. “Is this true? Why she didn’t tell me? We have the same feelings after all! I need to find her.” Richard told himself. He immediately ran outside the room and asked the old woman where Erica is.

“Where is Erica? Please tell me I need to talk to here I’m begging you!” He cried.

Then the old woman looked at him teary eyed and walked out towards the garden and Richard followed her. At the garden he saw a little boy picking some flowers. The little boy saw them and he was heading to the old woman.

“Are you finished picking some flowers?” The old woman asked the little boy.

“Yes, I’m sure mom would love this!” The little boy said joyfully. The little boy felt Richard’s presence and look at him.

“Hello sir are you going to visit mom with us? Today is her 8th death anniversary and are you her friend?” asked the little boy.

As Richard examined the little boy’s face, it seems that he was staring at his childhood image then he felt and indescribable feeling.

“Who was your mom?” Richard curiously asked.

“My mom? Her name was Erica Vasquez.” The little boy gladly answered.